Right now I am so full of rage it seems positively ridiculous.
I am angry, pacing. Why am I so angry and restless
It is like everything in my head is short of fuse
I don’t know what to do with this. I want to break things. I want to run and scream. What can I do with this energy? Can I walk it off? Can I do anything? I am just livid.
I feel like a thousand worms live within me and each one of them is screaming out for flesh.
Taking their pieces.
And all is left is this ball of rage. I want to destroy things.
I don’t know what I want. Well I do, but that wont help. I will end up right back here.
Feeling like this.
The weird thing is that chucking some paint onto paper has really helped me to feel better.
I guess the creative thing really does work. It makes you feel like you can have some effect on the world. Even if it is just to paint